oddness

Well, today has been rather odd. Started off alright except for stress over maths inclass. Did maths inclass. Was okayish, better than I expected actually. And then managed to have severe depressive attack and felt crap/cut off/lonely/insecure/slightly sick for the rest of the day. For no bloody reason at all. It was WEIRD. I felt like shit and I didn't know WHY, and then felt horrible for being quiet and probably whiny at everyone else. Horrible scary mood lasted all through double chem until JUSt before the end, when suddenly it cleared up JUST LIKE THAT. Surely double chem is not therapeutic? *feels scared at thought* So that was odd.
Dunno what brought on that attack, could possibly be the fact that I am broke as all hell and frantically NEED money. For vital things like bus tickets and photo reprints and dance party tickets. Also saw something on TAmarket that I REALLY want to get for someone's birthday but requires a hell of a lot more money than I have now. Plus postage and money order and stuff... so I really need to order some more things to make it worthwhile. For which I will need MORE money... *cries* I hate being poor.
Anna suggested sensible solution that it was my medication causing irrational mood swings, which I think makes a lot of sense. It's pretty strong stuff and apparently has heaps of side-effects. Stupid medication. But at least it's not just me.
BUT now I am home and fine and feeling fat from amount of junk food eaten today but otherwise not too bad. And I have street funk tonight, yay for exercise. And there is SO MUCH FUN STUFF coming up inluding END OF ASSESSMENT, McFormal, Teegs' sleepover, dance party, Dragon Skin, HOPEFULLY trip to Sydney... All looking wonderful. And I am going to get offline now and do ALL my work (hmmm...) after I finish emailing Ember.
Hopefully this mood shall continue.

*cries some more*

TAmarket has soooo much stuff I want. They have YnM posters and stationery. They have Kyou pins, MORE THAN 1 TYPE of Sano pin, an AOSHI pin which I am coveting like mad, an Alucard figurine (very cool), soooo many FF8 playing card sets it's not funny. And there appears to be a second series of Peach Girl - "Peach Girl Change of Heart" But they only have X volume NINE. Plus all the OTHER posters from basically EVERYTHING (Aoshiiiiii...) And the perfect THINGO for someone which I am horribly afraid will be sold out before I can rasie enough money. Blah.
Oh yes - ANIME SIMS SKINS!!!
Boshi brothers, Soi, Presea, the three MKR girls, some others. Have a look!
Teegs and Eujar and I BRIEFLY discussed the possiblity of making Ami and Su fall in love, just for the look of it.
But that would be rather wrong.

MCFORMAL!! IMPORTANT!!!

Gees, ANOTHER update... Need to post this though, as is IMPORTANT and concerns all of you going to the McFormal. There are going to be pre-Mcformal drinks/nibbles/meeting/whatever at MY HOUSE at 7 O'CLOCK Friday, and then my darling parents have agreed to drive everyone there. We can only take 8 including myself though. So far I KNOW Eujar, Ali, Mel, Teegs and Alex are coming (Eujar PLEASE ring Alex and give her these details). Who else?? Can only take two others. And then you need to ring parents from the McF itself to be picked up. And can someone take me home, please?? Okay. Think that's it. Thursday of next week is also confirmed, we will be supplying large amounts of soft drink but bring money to buy lunch at shops.
Gyaaa stupid street funk, it was really fun and we learnt a good new dance but I have suddenly developed a horrible heat rash all over my body, nodoubt from too much extertion in hot studio. Ick. Will go have cold shower.