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oddness
Well, today has been rather odd. Started off alright except for stress over maths inclass. Did maths inclass. Was okayish, better than I expected actually. And then managed to have severe depressive attack and felt crap/cut off/lonely/insecure/slightly sick for the rest of the day. For no bloody reason at all. It was WEIRD. I felt like shit and I didn't know WHY, and then felt horrible for being quiet and probably whiny at everyone else. Horrible scary mood lasted all through double chem until JUSt before the end, when suddenly it cleared up JUST LIKE THAT. Surely double chem is not therapeutic? *feels scared at thought* So that was odd.
Dunno what brought on that attack, could possibly be the fact that I am broke as all hell and frantically NEED money. For vital things like bus tickets and photo reprints and dance party tickets. Also saw something on TAmarket that I REALLY want to get for someone's birthday but requires a hell of a lot more money than I have now. Plus postage and money order and stuff... so I really need to order some more things to make it worthwhile. For which I will need MORE money... *cries* I hate being poor.
Anna suggested sensible solution that it was my medication causing irrational mood swings, which I think makes a lot of sense. It's pretty strong stuff and apparently has heaps of side-effects. Stupid medication. But at least it's not just me.
BUT now I am home and fine and feeling fat from amount of junk food eaten today but otherwise not too bad. And I have street funk tonight, yay for exercise. And there is SO MUCH FUN STUFF coming up inluding END OF ASSESSMENT, McFormal, Teegs' sleepover, dance party, Dragon Skin, HOPEFULLY trip to Sydney... All looking wonderful. And I am going to get offline now and do ALL my work (hmmm...) after I finish emailing Ember.
Hopefully this mood shall continue.
Dunno what brought on that attack, could possibly be the fact that I am broke as all hell and frantically NEED money. For vital things like bus tickets and photo reprints and dance party tickets. Also saw something on TAmarket that I REALLY want to get for someone's birthday but requires a hell of a lot more money than I have now. Plus postage and money order and stuff... so I really need to order some more things to make it worthwhile. For which I will need MORE money... *cries* I hate being poor.
Anna suggested sensible solution that it was my medication causing irrational mood swings, which I think makes a lot of sense. It's pretty strong stuff and apparently has heaps of side-effects. Stupid medication. But at least it's not just me.
BUT now I am home and fine and feeling fat from amount of junk food eaten today but otherwise not too bad. And I have street funk tonight, yay for exercise. And there is SO MUCH FUN STUFF coming up inluding END OF ASSESSMENT, McFormal, Teegs' sleepover, dance party, Dragon Skin, HOPEFULLY trip to Sydney... All looking wonderful. And I am going to get offline now and do ALL my work (hmmm...) after I finish emailing Ember.
Hopefully this mood shall continue.
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am glad you're feeling better.