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21 Dec 2006 10:52 pmDon't you just love how my journal has merged more or less seamlessly from endless bitching about uni to endless bitching about work? Yeah. Me too.
(Read: I worked 11 hours today because I am a MORON and agreed to stay until 10pm, and I am working 12 hours tomorrow. I just. I am so tired. My life has this heavy, disagreeable, relentless feel to it at the moment, as though I am walking uphill through the rain and there isn't even a good view awaiting me at the top. I am not happy, and as Ji pointed out recently: I am not such a cynic that I do not believe in the attainability of happiness, albeit as a transient state. I am such a self-reliant and neurotic little thing that I am usually of the firm belief that my own happiness is entirely under my personal control, but just at the moment I am...living beyond my own experience, uneasily, and I can't quite fit my hands around the gears.)
Well, that was an interesting parenthesis.
C'est la vie. (Alors, non: celle-ci n'est pas ma vie.)
Everything floats up.
More cheerfully, at the moment my head is full of Jack/Suzie because someone posted a really good fanmix for that pairing to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
torch_wood and I have added/deleted a few things to create a playlist of WONDER.
(Read: I worked 11 hours today because I am a MORON and agreed to stay until 10pm, and I am working 12 hours tomorrow. I just. I am so tired. My life has this heavy, disagreeable, relentless feel to it at the moment, as though I am walking uphill through the rain and there isn't even a good view awaiting me at the top. I am not happy, and as Ji pointed out recently: I am not such a cynic that I do not believe in the attainability of happiness, albeit as a transient state. I am such a self-reliant and neurotic little thing that I am usually of the firm belief that my own happiness is entirely under my personal control, but just at the moment I am...living beyond my own experience, uneasily, and I can't quite fit my hands around the gears.)
Well, that was an interesting parenthesis.
C'est la vie. (Alors, non: celle-ci n'est pas ma vie.)
Everything floats up.
More cheerfully, at the moment my head is full of Jack/Suzie because someone posted a really good fanmix for that pairing to
torch_wood and I have added/deleted a few things to create a playlist of WONDER.