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really, I just like the word 'melancholy'
*curls up in a ball*
You know those days where you wake up already wishing you were asleep again?
Yeah.
I couldn't concentrate in my single tutorial and had to fight not to make a mistake in my 3-hour practical lab for genetics. So many dilutions and centrifugations and additions and little fiddly steps where something could be forgotten. I appear to have lost all of my lab-fu over the break, and the demonstrator kept having to stop me and show me an easier/better/less STUPID way.
Some days are just designed to be marked 'return to sender'.
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I considered the opinion anonymeme.
If you have something you want to tell me, tell me here. Honest opinion is never something I will ignore. I believe in the courage required to put your name next to your words, and if I'm doing something to inadvertently piss off or anger anyone...I want to know. I can't promise that I'll change. But I promise to listen.
And if you want to tell me something nice, hell, designated dumping grounds for affection are only for the likes of Valentines Day and other commercialised social constructs. I'm allowed to say shit like this because I'm single, you see.
The point being: your opinions of me, good OR bad, do not have to be stuck anonymously under a nervously posted comment that's the virtual equivalent of tying oneself to a tree and waiting to be fed chocolates or hit with rotten tomatoes.
I'm sorry if I sound pissy. See above re: not the best of days. And some of my friends have actually been hurt by that meme, so I'm not feeling too kindly disposed towards it, no matter how many warm fuzzies it has to potential to give me.
You know those days where you wake up already wishing you were asleep again?
Yeah.
I couldn't concentrate in my single tutorial and had to fight not to make a mistake in my 3-hour practical lab for genetics. So many dilutions and centrifugations and additions and little fiddly steps where something could be forgotten. I appear to have lost all of my lab-fu over the break, and the demonstrator kept having to stop me and show me an easier/better/less STUPID way.
Some days are just designed to be marked 'return to sender'.
~
I considered the opinion anonymeme.
If you have something you want to tell me, tell me here. Honest opinion is never something I will ignore. I believe in the courage required to put your name next to your words, and if I'm doing something to inadvertently piss off or anger anyone...I want to know. I can't promise that I'll change. But I promise to listen.
And if you want to tell me something nice, hell, designated dumping grounds for affection are only for the likes of Valentines Day and other commercialised social constructs. I'm allowed to say shit like this because I'm single, you see.
The point being: your opinions of me, good OR bad, do not have to be stuck anonymously under a nervously posted comment that's the virtual equivalent of tying oneself to a tree and waiting to be fed chocolates or hit with rotten tomatoes.
I'm sorry if I sound pissy. See above re: not the best of days. And some of my friends have actually been hurt by that meme, so I'm not feeling too kindly disposed towards it, no matter how many warm fuzzies it has to potential to give me.
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the positive: on an intellectual level, i feel we connect extremely well 90% of the time. which makes for great conversation. i also trust you entirely - with information, to do what is best for me, to tell me the truth.
these would be the reasons why you're my best friend. because we think similarly and are thus extremely combatible, and also because you have honour when it comes to people.
the negative: you're very egocentric. i won't say selfish, because when you DO think of others you do the right thing by them; the problem is you often entirely fail to notice the needs/opinions/circumstances of others. and i think that's related to the second issue - while we connect intellectually we totally don't emotionally 90% of the time. as a very passionate and, at times, irrationally emotional person, it's at times challenging to understand/deal with the way you entirely divorce yourself of any natural human feeling. i think both these issues stem from a severe lack of empathy. while that may sound nasty, i don't think it's incurable - and i think that while you are brilliant in every academic field, you shouldn't use that as a justification for failing to address the issues you KNOW you have with relating to, understanding and empathising with others.
so you're the best of friends to talk to, to theorise with, to work with, to whine about life with. but i think it's sad that you can't extend your awesome personality traits to being someone to cry with or share feelings with. but that said: i consider the most important traits in a friend to be trust, understanding and intelligence, all of which you are abundant in. so if you never change a jot i'll be hanging around nevertheless. ^__^
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Oh, man, this opinion thing was such a good idea.
You're MY best friend because you are not afraid to beat me over the head with the things I'm not bothered to (and quite frankly, kind of terrified to) fix about myself. Right now I feel like if I let go of my control of ANYTHING I am going to drop the strings, which I kind of suspect I shouldn't be feeling two weeks into the year, but that's me.
I will work on it. I will. I promise.
Also, you used the word 'honour', and that made me so pleased :)
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AWWWWWW. *hugs for frar* like i said - you don't need to work on it for me to be all friendsies with you. but i merely suggest your perfectionist tendencies be directed slightly more towards actual flaws rather than areas (eg. writing, knowing, spending - or lack thereof) where you are already rather extraordinarily flawless.
no string dropping. really. take a step back and be like "WHOAH, i achieved more than any sane person should be able to today" whenever it gets overwhelming. working 25 hours/ week + uni has made me feel rather string-droppy myself a few times lately, and that helps. remember we love you and come for hugs when you need it. hugs are good.
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