In which I do nothing

[fahye]

I can't walk into a music shop without buying something. It's awful. Somehow today I have acquired the best of U2 1990-2000, the best of the Red Hot Chilli Peppers, the Australian cast recording of Cats, and another volume of Confidential Confessions. Tokyo Babylon had sold out and Demon Diary 7 was nowhere to be seen ;_;

Mel - TMM 7 is out. Ichigo is wearing something that looks alarmingly like a pink wedding dress. I had to cover my eyes before the fluff corroded them.

Am drinking tea at a crazy rate and half-heartedly considering studying.

My brother has taken over Dimitri and has renamed him ARWEN. I am appalled.

Also...I had a long conversation about homosexuality with my mother today, and still couldn't find a way to tell her I'm bi. I think I'm just kind of hoping she'll ask me flat out, because that involves no effort on my part. (It got spurred by her telling me about this big controversy because Playschool showed one of its 'through the windows' things where a girl talked about her "mummy and other mummy" and all these conservative twits went up in arms)

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[not-in-denial.livejournal.com]

I remember coming out to my mother. *pause* It went like this:

Erin: Mum, I'm bisexual.
Mother: That's nice, what do you want for dinner?
Erin: *deflates*

...such a nonevent. >> Although it's kind of good that way.

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

What was your mum's view on homosexuality? I HAVE told my mum but she said it was a phase. Er. I think she's repressed all knowledge of it, actually. Whereas other people who shall not be named's mothers said "okay" and "whatever makes you happy" respectively. *pout*

[etrangere.livejournal.com]

*wincing* Yeah; right there with you.

The funny thing is my parents don't even think of themselves as conservative people. But when the conversation turns to homosexuality...

Thought I do think I'll keep on waiting until I can tell them, 'I'm with this person'. I don't think they would understand me if I told 'em I knew I was bi thought I hadn't been with a woman yet.

[fahye.livejournal.com]

I asked her what she'd say if one of us was gay, but she thought I was referring to my brother *headdesk* She said she wouldn't love him any less, but she'd be worried that his life would be difficult.

She went on about how insecure and difficult it must be having alternate sexuality in your teens.

Me: *thinks about her friends* *tries not to smile*

[ryokophoenix.livejournal.com]

Wah.
*dies*

[fahye.livejournal.com]

:D You understand!

*projects*

Mum: So how do you KNOW?
Me: Uh...I just do?

[fahye.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Why wah?

[not-in-denial.livejournal.com]

o.0; Insecure and difficult? Dude, quick, where are these teens with insecurity and difficulty due to their sexuality? I want to meet some and confuse theme mo--I mean, reassure them. >>

[ryokophoenix.livejournal.com]

There is an incredible amount of people giving up 'coming put' stories here....XD

There is no way I could ever tell my mum. At least, not until I moved out. I mean for christ's sake, mum said I couldnt marry a japanese man because it'd be "too wierd". I can just imagine her reaction to bisexuality...she's quite closeminded.
Not until I'm elsewhere or its unavoidable. I just cant.

[ryokophoenix.livejournal.com]

Insecurity. Difficulty.
Hear bloody hear.
>.<
Nah, it aint so bad. Just occasionally I get pissed at society. *shrugs*

[ryokophoenix.livejournal.com]

*raises hand*
Not insecurity.....so much as the difficulty.
I'm not referring to being comfortable with myself or anything, I got over that ages ago.
Just...trying to have a relationship with a girl with this society? WIth my mother? *sighs*

[not-in-denial.livejournal.com]

That's the part where you date a drag king.

Society has either improved a lot, or it just ignores me....but your mother could indeed be a problem. I shall ponder this.

[not-in-denial.livejournal.com]

*addenum* I wouldn't be surprised if society ignored me, incidentally. >> I think it started looking the other way a while ago.

[ryokophoenix.livejournal.com]

XD But where do you find them?

Doesnt ignore me....friends are okay with it. But in public? Around school? Holding hands gets stares and rumors. School's a shocking place to be, sometimes. Or maybe I'm paranoid. -_-;;

[ryokophoenix.livejournal.com]

Mwah.
I think you might be lucky...

Love your icons, all of them. Though I dont know who the guy with the stick up his arse is....he always makes me laugh anyway. XD

[fahye.livejournal.com]

School IS a shocking place to be sometimes. Especially an all girls school.

[not-in-denial.livejournal.com]

*points to self* There's a whole bunch of em if you know where to look XD Or if you're a deviant like me. >_>; As for ones in Canberra, there's always the Cunning Stunts...really must see them again, actually, wonder when they're next performing...? *blinks back to present*

See, this is my problem. I haven't been to school since I was 14. I take your word for it, however, on how bad it would be. Public should be less of a problem, I've certainly had no one stare at me too much (and considering the people I hang out with [transgenders and the like] this is probably a fairly good guage)...when it comes to the general public, people generally only react because they think you expect them to. Act normally, they generally do too.

But school...yeah, school. >_> I see the problem.

[ryokophoenix.livejournal.com]

Its whats made us what we are today.

....

[littledust.livejournal.com]

Try watching the Utena movie sometime. The forces of the cosmos decree that one or both of your parents will walk in on the last five minutes of the movie every single time you watch it. If THAT won't raise some eyebrows, I don't know WHAT will. XD

[fahye.livejournal.com]

That IS an interesting idea. However, my mother is perfectly aware of the fact that I love Queer As Folk and has sat through several painfully explicit scenes, both gay and lesbian, with me.

Possibly she is in denial.

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

Hee! Yeah, I'd say we have that market pretty well covered, there.

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

... possibly she is just biding her time? You never know, this may be her being tactful and waiting for you to tell her yourself.

[fahye.livejournal.com]

Point.

Scary point.

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

Dude, that is exactly what my own dear mumsy thinks about it.

[tammaiya.livejournal.com]

... you're awake? But it's- oh, yeah. It's morning. *cough*