Wings

[fahye]

There used to be a time, you know
Shadows were a haven of thought
And the night brought only you
Watching with shy adoration
And never a thought for the future
Hopelessly lost in an illusion
That things might turn out right
That it wasn’t just a dream to chase
And that one day peace would come

I guess we all have to wake up sometime
Open our eyes to passing years
Does it always hurt as little as this?
Maybe it’s just me, maybe...
Just when I needed you
You gave me back to myself
No, I never needed you...
And that’s what I woke up to
The day you opened my eyes

Maybe that’s why I never told you
Because part of me knew it wasn’t real
Just watched, and watched
And learned far more that I knew
Learned that naivety can be taken
And it won’t hurt a bit
Learned that hearts can’t be broken
Because they were made to be used
And that life always, always goes on

God knows I don’t want to pretend
When you never saw anything anyway
So you’ll never know it happened
And I’ll live with an ironic hiccup
Somewhere in the summer years
Stretch my wings and laugh about it
And call it childhood folly
Because that’s all it ever was
Despite what either of us thought

Sometimes I feel you watch me, now
Your eyes opened to a possibility
That I played with and discarded
That’s where we differ, and that’s
Why I’m too far above you now
My eyes were open years ago
I can’t stay back and guide you through
You could have had this, that day
But I grew up and you stayed behind

We all need to find a silver lining
Even when there are no clouds
And the sun is too heavy and too much
We need a silver mist to fool us
To forget, for just a little while
That nothing is eternal in this world
And look where change has taken us
Round a carousel circle and back
Right where we began

You’ll wish me luck, right?
Sorry I couldn’t help you more
The way you helped me long ago
By showing me how to feel like that
I’ll find it again, somewhere else
And maybe I’ll think of you
But for now, this is farewell
Keep your eyes on me, now...
Wings are made to fly

Comments

[fahye.livejournal.com]

Very vaguely. Sort of two real-life experiences twisted a little bit and then some stuff entirely made up and some bits inspired by a Squall/Zell fic, of all the ridiculous things.
I love writing this sort of thing. I can't bottle things up when it feels so much better to write them in warped, pretty ways.

[izumihydra.livejournal.com]

warped and pretty indeed.
i find you curious.

[fahye.livejournal.com]

you told me once that my mind was a scary place... sometimes I think you're right. but I wouldn't live anywhere else.