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Last night I wrote 200 words and was so excited because it seemed like such an achievement! Fiction! From my head! Written down! Wow!

Talk about altered perspectives :( I feel awful that my Merlin WIP is just sitting there in half-posted limbo, that I have started so many other stories, and that I can feel yet more bubbling away longingly in my mind. I feel awful that I set aside precious fractions of hours to write and then just sit there feeling sluggish and guilty and as though my talent is dissolving.

It's Sunday afternoon and I've spent the entire weekend to date working. My to-do list is not done. I expect it will start to grow again tomorrow. Sometimes I feel like I'm just bashing my head against a brick wall, but sometimes I do feel like I'm learning a lot and inching closer towards where I have to be at the end of next year, so it's -- well, it's not horrible, just hard.

I know I'm in the right place working towards the right thing. I've got a good network of friends in RL and online. There is both dry ginger ale and chocolate in my fridge. Life is, overall, very tolerable.

But GOD, writing, I miss it. I feel like there's a hole in me somewhere.

Comments

[inknose.livejournal.com]

That sucks. Eugh, being that busy can be really overwhelming and discouraging. But, continuing to look on the bright side, it's a great thing that you love writing so much that you start to feel incomplete when you don't get the chance to do it. That's how I feel about drawing :) and lots of people haven't found something they're that passionate about yet! *positive vibes*

[littledust.livejournal.com]

That is how I feel about making music nowadays. I don't have the kind of schedule that can accommodate rehearsals. :(

Hang in there, lovely. ♥