bittersweet

[fahye]

It's not often (almost never, in fact) that I cast a glance at what I'm doing with my life and think that I might be happier doing something else.

But I'm spending this evening immersed in a world that I created, with characters who came from somewhere inside of me but are acquiring dimensions and voices entirely of their own accord. Putting words next to one another and revelling in the patterns that result. Nothing else compares to this -- whenever I'm doing it it's grudgingly sublime, whenever I'm not doing it there's a part of me that wishes I was, right now, this moment, all moments, always.

It's entirely true that I would rather be a full-time writer than anything else.

It is, sadly, just as true that I don't have any faith in my ability to achieve this.

(So what's a concurrent life plan that allows me a lot of free time in which to practice the thing I enjoy the most? I KNOW: MED SCHOOL.

OH WAIT.

Ha.)

Comments

[girl-wonder.livejournal.com]

EEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Plus, the world you created? AWESOME.

[lilith-lessfair.livejournal.com]

Hey there lovely lady,

You've my sympathies on the juggling of your two different passions.

Trying to arrive at something that isn't terribly trite, I'll likely fail. But, think, whether you do decide to write full time (and you don't have to decide to do it now) or whether you use it as another way of fulfilling yourself while you are a doctor, you are a very lucky woman to have found something that you enjoy so very much and do so very well.
You could also be the Wallace Stevens of medicine. Better, maybe, in that you can write gorgeous prose and poetry and also be fulfilled as a doctor (I doubt he found life as an insurance exec that fulfilling.), if that's what you choose.

Also agree with fryadvocate, it's a beautiful, terrible world you've created in the eyaiverse.

[dr-biscuit.livejournal.com]

Also, I offer William Carlos Williams as an example of medic/writer.

[kcdl.livejournal.com]

Who needs talent, all you need is a fan base and publisher. *cough* Stephenie Meyer *cough*. You do have talent though, so even better.

If Michael Chrichton can do it so why can't you?