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Fahye ([personal profile] fahye) wrote2007-09-23 08:17 pm
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tapped into your feminitiy

My head is all over the place at the moment, moving far too fast for me to pin anything in particular down - I suspect this is a last-minute reaction to my impending interview, which I am finally letting myself think about. I've been mostly pushing it aside in the name of Getting Things Done, but the fact remains that tomorrow decides whether or not I get accepted into Australia's most competitive graduate medical school. I'm trying not to talk about it too much because the response - flattering, but strangely pressuring - from most people is 'oh, you'll be fine', and yes I know that I interview well and that my GAMSAT score was good and that my chances of getting in are high, but...this is quite literally a pivotal and potentially life-altering day (yeah, yeah, omg melodrama) and I think a dose of nerves is well-deserved.

I do wish it would manifest in some form other than an accelerated version of my normal inability to concentrate on one thing for an extended period of time, because there are things that I'd like to get done.

Choir camp was great. We won the trivia competition. I'm feeling a hell of a lot more secure about the Vivaldi and the Purcell, and our Zadok The Priest is sounding appropriately thunderous and regal. I finished William Gibson's Pattern Recognition, to which my reaction was...hmm, okay, so some books I react to cerebrally and some viscerally (rarer), but I reacted to this one in both ways and also on some extra techno-aesthete wavelength, creating a very neat and compelling chord of approval. I have a few reservations about plot structure and pacing, but Gibson constructs a truly phenomenal set of themes and places them on very well-layered characters like a collection of crazy avant-garde hats.

Sorry, maybe I'd be able to produce a coherent review if it weren't for the aforementioned acceleration. I need to find something to latch my brain onto before it starts getting destructive.

What have you lot been up to, then?
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[personal profile] ashen_key 2007-09-23 10:38 am (UTC)(link)
Eyepatching Johnny Depp, writing random things, and in other ways completely PANICING about getting things done for uni to the extent that I haven't called up shrink to write ANU a nice letter saying that I just have an ADD brain, and am in fact very smart, even though I need to by the end of the week.

Basically?

Procrastinating.
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[personal profile] ashen_key 2007-09-23 10:50 am (UTC)(link)
Also! Just because my brain does get like that, rather a lot (thanks to the aforementioned ADD), I find making icons helps. Just bases, crop and border. It's easy enough, quick enough that you concentrate, and needs just enough brain power to slowly calm your brain down.

[identity profile] -leareth.livejournal.com 2007-09-23 10:54 am (UTC)(link)
I would add to the "of course you'll be fine for the interview!" sentiment, but instead I'll be different and say, "I talked to my dad and he obviously knows my uncle very well and he's confident that the general terms I emailed you about the apartment would be fine and he'll knock the details out with my uncle next week so YOU, GET INTO THAT MED COURSE AND COME CHECK OUT CHATSWOOD."

...wait, are you coming to Sydney for the interview and if so how long are you here for?

[identity profile] not-in-denial.livejournal.com 2007-09-23 11:21 am (UTC)(link)
I understand the mindnumbing anxiety caused by Giant Life Changing Events. You have warm thoughts from my direction!

I've been...still not dealing with the breakup, mostly. Trying to avoid thinking by coming up with lots of things to do to Change the World and all that.

[identity profile] pirateygoodness.livejournal.com 2007-09-23 11:35 am (UTC)(link)
Funnily enough, I've been doing med applications myself. :D

Good luck on the interview, remember to breathe. You're totally qualified to answer questions about how awesome you are, it's just a matter of remembering how.
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[identity profile] fahye.livejournal.com 2007-09-23 11:41 am (UTC)(link)
Unfortunately, the questions are not about how awesome I am. They are scenarios in which my line of verbal reasoning is assessed for things like Integrity and Appreciation Of Diversity and Professionalism.
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[personal profile] silveraspen 2007-09-23 03:34 pm (UTC)(link)
What have I been up to? Work, mostly, with a side of school prep.

(Also writing fic. I am the slowest writer that ever wrote anything, but I am still working on the response fic that I mentioned before. Am about halfway through.)

Also, I completely understand the dose of nerves on this topic. Completely. Best of luck to you and I will keep you in my thoughts and my fingers crossed.
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[identity profile] schiarire.livejournal.com 2007-09-23 03:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Tell them you only have half a heart and they'll let you in as a medical marvel. (You can't have the other half until it's OK to have emotions again. *hangs onto it*)

[identity profile] thepouncer.livejournal.com 2007-09-23 06:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Pattern Recognition was the favorite novel I read in 2005 (http://thepouncer.livejournal.com/245485.html). And two years on, I still think about the ideas Gibson pondered, making other connections as I learn new things. I'm eager for Spook Country to come out in trade paperback so I can read his latest.

This morning has seen me lazy, snuggling with my dogs, eating toast and drinking tea for breakfast. And now I'm about to start accomplishing items on my to do list: giving Kirby a bath, washing my sheets, clearing out the backlog on my TiVo.

I wish Sundays could last forever.

[identity profile] unravels.livejournal.com 2007-09-23 07:07 pm (UTC)(link)
I would wax poetic (fear) about weekend if I was not in traffic and thought I would kill someone with car at full speed. :/ But good luck!! We're pulling for you. ♥

[identity profile] jadengreen36.livejournal.com 2007-09-24 02:29 am (UTC)(link)
I've been mostly pushing it aside in the name of Getting Things Done, but the fact remains that tomorrow decides whether or not I get accepted into Australia's most competitive graduate medical school

Well, I'm thinking good luck thoughts for you!