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In. A. Bad. Mood.
Gang Show all day. Learnt a really cool difficult dance but most of the people in it have been miscast and can't do it so it will look bad. Screwed neck doing backwards shoulder rolls, couldn't do any lifts or floorwork because of sprained wrist, ate too much cake and hot chips. Still bloody hungry and craving chocolate and refusing to look in my full-length mirror.
Had short almost-crying attack AGAIN, and I really don't think I can tell the people who want to know what it's about because it'll sound AWFUL and self-centred and incredibly selfish and it concerns them in a way. Listening to "Lost Without You" and have a horrible feeling that I'm going to feel like crying whenever I hear it. Just what I bloody need.
Shit, maybe I am going to cry. All those years of being incapable of crying in public and all I want right now is someone that will just sit there and let me cry to them and maybe hold me and talk to me afterwards. Why do I refuse to enter relationships? Granted, I haven't felt this bad for years, but...I'm so bloody insecure. Damn this stupid song, I'm turning it off before I end up like Yuki with a headache from crying for the first time in 4 years.
::Personal Info::
[[name]] Freya
[[nicknames]] Frar, FreyJAR, Freysie (don't ask), Red, Cinderella (gang show jokes)
[[sex ]] F
[[star sign]] Sagittarius
[[place of birth ]] Melbourne
[[current residence]] Canberra
[[hair color]] Odd reddish golden blonde
[[height]] 168ish cm
[[weight]] no idea. weighing depresses me and so I refuse to do it. around 55 last time I checked but probably more now
[[writing hand]] right
[[favorite band] Dire Straits, the Corrs, Etype, Linkin Park
::Can You or Do You::
[[do you bite your nails]] nope
[[can you roll your tongue]] Yes
[[can you raise one eyebrow at a time]] well I can half-raise one and half-push-down the other, which makes it look like it.
[[can you blow smoke rings]] probably not.. never tried
[[can you blow spit bubbles]] yeeeees...
[[can you cross your eyes ]] Yes
[[can you flip your eyelids out]] no
[[have tattoos and where]] I might get a dragon one at some stage in my life
[[have piercings and where]] Ears. May get bellybutton.
[[do you make your bed daily] nope
[[do you twirl your spagetti or cut it]] twirl, albeit rather unsuccessfully
[[do you cook]] if forced to or if I want cake
[[do you paint your nails]] occasionally
[[do you swear]] too much
[[do you spit or swallow]] *ignores*
[[do you spit in public]] no...
[[ do you use an alarm clock]] yes! i hate the evil thing
[[do you snore]] no, maybe if i have a bad cold
[[do you sleepwalk]] I used to
[[do you talk in your sleep]] no
[[do you sleep with a stuffed animal]] no
::Other stuff::
[[whut goes on first, bra or underwear]] underwear
[[which shoe goes on first]] whichever??
[[speaking of shoes, have you thrown one at someone]] yes. it was very satifying
[[how much money is usually in your wallet]] *sobs* less than $30
[[whut jewelry do you wear 24/7]] KYOU BRACELET!
[ whuts sexiest on a guy]] nice torso and no shirt
[[whuts sexiest on a gurl]] why are you asking me??
[[would you rather be on time and look ok or late and look great]] somewhere in the middle
[[ whut utensils do you use eating pizza]] fingers or maybe knife and fork if it's really messy
[[how often do you brush your teeth]] twice a day.
[[how often do you shower/bathe]] once a day unless I'm REALLY busy
[[how long do these showers last]] 10-15 mins
[[hair drying method]] towel half-heartedly, brush, leave for a bit, attack with hair dryer, brush more, give up in disgust, brush, let it dry naturally
[[the cd player]] um... has my gravitation cd on pause
[[person you talk most on the fone with]] no-one really. how depressing.
[[person you like talking to the most on the computer]] on msn? ali or james
[[Person you would go to if you need advice]] depends what kind of advice it is. usually i just struggle through on my own which is probably unwise but that's just me
[[whut color is your bedroom]] cream and posters (F: I like that description! mine too)
[[name one thing your obsessed with]] anime. duh.
[[have you ever skinny dipped with the opposite sex]] no
[[ever sunbathed in the nude]] nope
[[window seat or aisle]] window seat unless there's some horrible person on the aisle that you have to climb over to get out
[[whuts your sleeping position]] side usually
[[in hot weather do you use a blanket]] same doona all year
[[sleep with the light on]] no I can't do that
[[do you fall asleep with the tv or radio on]] can't do that either unless REALLY tired
[[what was your last dream about]] um.. some weird shit about my venturer friends
[[where do you see yourself in 10 years]] with very little money. living by myself. probably with some weird job.
[[who are you gonna be married to and where]] married? me? *laughs*
[[how many kids do you want to have]] kids? me? *runs away*
[[your profession]] writer, scientist, uni lecturer... something, I dunno. I'd like to go into science communication.
[[future school]] ANU
::Last time or thing::
[[had sex]] Never.
[[watched bambi]] gawd, maybe 10 years ago??
[[cried]] um. not sure. can't remember. year 7 camp?
[[talked on the phone]] took a message for mum yesterday
[[read a boook ]] too long ago
[[punched someone]] dunno
[[ thing you ate]] tea. roast pork.
[[thing you wore]] black pants and long black top (current)
[[thing you drank]] milk
[[thing you did with any other person (not sexually)]] pissed mother off by being antisocial and rude
[[last thing you did with a pen/pencil/marker]] maths hw
[[tatoo or pericing(if any)]] ears
[[last song you listened to]] Queen - The Show Must Go On
*smiles* My sister just walked in saying "Freya! We have anime on foxtel!" Looks like my family have finally worked out how to use video on demand.
Not sure if I should post this entry as it's the most raw, personal thing I've written in a LONG time but I'm going to anyway. Never let it be said that I hold anything back..
Had short almost-crying attack AGAIN, and I really don't think I can tell the people who want to know what it's about because it'll sound AWFUL and self-centred and incredibly selfish and it concerns them in a way. Listening to "Lost Without You" and have a horrible feeling that I'm going to feel like crying whenever I hear it. Just what I bloody need.
Shit, maybe I am going to cry. All those years of being incapable of crying in public and all I want right now is someone that will just sit there and let me cry to them and maybe hold me and talk to me afterwards. Why do I refuse to enter relationships? Granted, I haven't felt this bad for years, but...I'm so bloody insecure. Damn this stupid song, I'm turning it off before I end up like Yuki with a headache from crying for the first time in 4 years.
::Personal Info::
[[name]] Freya
[[nicknames]] Frar, FreyJAR, Freysie (don't ask), Red, Cinderella (gang show jokes)
[[sex ]] F
[[star sign]] Sagittarius
[[place of birth ]] Melbourne
[[current residence]] Canberra
[[hair color]] Odd reddish golden blonde
[[height]] 168ish cm
[[weight]] no idea. weighing depresses me and so I refuse to do it. around 55 last time I checked but probably more now
[[writing hand]] right
[[favorite band] Dire Straits, the Corrs, Etype, Linkin Park
::Can You or Do You::
[[do you bite your nails]] nope
[[can you roll your tongue]] Yes
[[can you raise one eyebrow at a time]] well I can half-raise one and half-push-down the other, which makes it look like it.
[[can you blow smoke rings]] probably not.. never tried
[[can you blow spit bubbles]] yeeeees...
[[can you cross your eyes ]] Yes
[[can you flip your eyelids out]] no
[[have tattoos and where]] I might get a dragon one at some stage in my life
[[have piercings and where]] Ears. May get bellybutton.
[[do you make your bed daily] nope
[[do you twirl your spagetti or cut it]] twirl, albeit rather unsuccessfully
[[do you cook]] if forced to or if I want cake
[[do you paint your nails]] occasionally
[[do you swear]] too much
[[do you spit or swallow]] *ignores*
[[do you spit in public]] no...
[[ do you use an alarm clock]] yes! i hate the evil thing
[[do you snore]] no, maybe if i have a bad cold
[[do you sleepwalk]] I used to
[[do you talk in your sleep]] no
[[do you sleep with a stuffed animal]] no
::Other stuff::
[[whut goes on first, bra or underwear]] underwear
[[which shoe goes on first]] whichever??
[[speaking of shoes, have you thrown one at someone]] yes. it was very satifying
[[how much money is usually in your wallet]] *sobs* less than $30
[[whut jewelry do you wear 24/7]] KYOU BRACELET!
[ whuts sexiest on a guy]] nice torso and no shirt
[[whuts sexiest on a gurl]] why are you asking me??
[[would you rather be on time and look ok or late and look great]] somewhere in the middle
[[ whut utensils do you use eating pizza]] fingers or maybe knife and fork if it's really messy
[[how often do you brush your teeth]] twice a day.
[[how often do you shower/bathe]] once a day unless I'm REALLY busy
[[how long do these showers last]] 10-15 mins
[[hair drying method]] towel half-heartedly, brush, leave for a bit, attack with hair dryer, brush more, give up in disgust, brush, let it dry naturally
[[the cd player]] um... has my gravitation cd on pause
[[person you talk most on the fone with]] no-one really. how depressing.
[[person you like talking to the most on the computer]] on msn? ali or james
[[Person you would go to if you need advice]] depends what kind of advice it is. usually i just struggle through on my own which is probably unwise but that's just me
[[whut color is your bedroom]] cream and posters (F: I like that description! mine too)
[[name one thing your obsessed with]] anime. duh.
[[have you ever skinny dipped with the opposite sex]] no
[[ever sunbathed in the nude]] nope
[[window seat or aisle]] window seat unless there's some horrible person on the aisle that you have to climb over to get out
[[whuts your sleeping position]] side usually
[[in hot weather do you use a blanket]] same doona all year
[[sleep with the light on]] no I can't do that
[[do you fall asleep with the tv or radio on]] can't do that either unless REALLY tired
[[what was your last dream about]] um.. some weird shit about my venturer friends
[[where do you see yourself in 10 years]] with very little money. living by myself. probably with some weird job.
[[who are you gonna be married to and where]] married? me? *laughs*
[[how many kids do you want to have]] kids? me? *runs away*
[[your profession]] writer, scientist, uni lecturer... something, I dunno. I'd like to go into science communication.
[[future school]] ANU
::Last time or thing::
[[had sex]] Never.
[[watched bambi]] gawd, maybe 10 years ago??
[[cried]] um. not sure. can't remember. year 7 camp?
[[talked on the phone]] took a message for mum yesterday
[[read a boook ]] too long ago
[[punched someone]] dunno
[[ thing you ate]] tea. roast pork.
[[thing you wore]] black pants and long black top (current)
[[thing you drank]] milk
[[thing you did with any other person (not sexually)]] pissed mother off by being antisocial and rude
[[last thing you did with a pen/pencil/marker]] maths hw
[[tatoo or pericing(if any)]] ears
[[last song you listened to]] Queen - The Show Must Go On
*smiles* My sister just walked in saying "Freya! We have anime on foxtel!" Looks like my family have finally worked out how to use video on demand.
Not sure if I should post this entry as it's the most raw, personal thing I've written in a LONG time but I'm going to anyway. Never let it be said that I hold anything back..
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FRAR!
DOES LAE AND UP WITH RIKKA?
DOES HE?
*DOES HE*!?!?!??!?!