but you hold every card

[fahye]

I have an hour and a half left before I go to have an early dinner before choir, and having spent all of my free time today working solidly and hunting down textbooks with names like Embodied Progress: a cultural account of assisted conception and Adult Information Processing: Limits on Loss, I'm just going to sit here and read fic and wait for people to pop out of the virtual woodwork and amuse me. This icon is PERFECT.

For some reason I'm currently listening to my playlist of suicidally depressing songs - you know, the ones that will utterly destroy you if you're in the right mood. Luckily, my mood is fairly bulletproof just now, so they're just pretty songs.

What I Learned At School Today: if you took all the DNA in your body and stretched it out end-to-end, it would reach to the moon and back 188,000 times.

Shut up, I'm still impressed by things like that.

Comments

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

When iTunes committed suicide I lost that list.

NOW WHEN I WANT TO SLIT MY WRISTS WITH CDS I JUST, YOU KNOW, CAN'T. NO MOOD MUSIC.

[fahye.livejournal.com]

:O

SHOCKING. See, Camille's playlist is still called 'Broken CD suicide' but my iTunes has gone pffff since I last updated him and I am yet to rebuild this particular playlist on my computer.

IT'S A COLD AND IT'S A BROKEN HALLELUJAH

*weeps crystal tears*

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

Peaceful people, violent guns . . .

You know what is a cold and broken hallelujah? Enjolras/Grantaire. I am showing Holly. And the coldest, most broken hallelujah-est part is that I will never write like that again.

*sullen*

[fahye.livejournal.com]

Reading E/R was great. Those threads just sat on my heart like a really grumpy iceberg and depressed me to death and I loved every second. And our E/R fics! And the fact that we both managed to write almost the same thing so many times, and Art was pleased.

Why never again?

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

We did, didn't we? that was kind of amazing. I can't remember if I was influenced by you or not. I do know that we did not both make Guillaume Apollinaire references.

Never again because, because I don't know. I suppose it's situational. I very rarely get to put words in the mouths of people like Grantaire. In a situation like that one.

(Dead, dead, dead! whyyy did you ever point that out to me? now I am paranoid. :O)

[fahye.livejournal.com]

That's because I was making it all up and you were going mad with the revolutionary calendar system and your, you know, actual historical knowledge.

Oh, shut up, you pointed out that thing about perfect structure and it's TRUE and now I CRY AT NIGHT because I can't destructuralise anything. And when I try, I just get more complex structure.

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

WELL IT'S WONDERFUL THAT WE MAKE EACH OTHER INSECURE!

You should help me put together a seemly, limited original portfolio such as is suitable for presenting at my interview tomorrow. Emphasis on "seemly," i.e. no gay devil stories.

[fahye.livejournal.com]

...see, if only the institutions of the world would accept gay devil stories as proof of literary merit, I could just shove Gethsemane and Best Of Three down everyone's throats and dance away.

Um.

The angelthing you wrote for Nny. My birthday present, because you totally can't tell it's meant to be Bon Voyage unless you know but it's still very good. Write some poetry that's LONGER THAN A WHATSITCALLED. Maybe dig up some writing you did about your Africa trip and tweak it a bit, because it had some good raw things and less of the prettily put together. I FORGET WHAT YOU HAVE WRITTEN.

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

I think that we'd definitely both win Nobel Prizes. Hello, Stockholm!

Original fic here (http://www.livejournal.com/tools/memories.bml?user=schiarire&keyword=FIC:+Original&filter=all).

I do have one longer poem, but it is a love poem and sappy. :X You can see it if you want, I guess. Email.

He will be seeing the Africa thing because he requested a copy of my application. Therefore he will also get to see, like, blah blah serve my nation! and also blah blah Venice is pretty.

I don't know. He asked for my app, an academic resume, and any other extracurricular type stuff that I could show him, so I'm bringing some writing and maybe some art.

[fahye.livejournal.com]

Dick and Jane is good but also, I think, too long.

I have always loved Alice Green but I think you need to go through and give it a punctuationectomy.

What's this interview for?

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

Also, I'm so disinterested in Dick & Jane. I don't even know why.

HAHAHA it's totally true! Alice Green is waaay with the punctuation indulgence. I wince now.

I told you in an email! think Amory. :O

[fahye.livejournal.com]

Sorry, Gmail is still being bitchy, but it has now deigned to let me in.

HOMG AMORY. YOU MUST. YOU MUST BE IMPRESSIVE! I MEAN, YOU ARE IMPRESSIVE, BUT!

*combs your hair and fusses with your tie*

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

I would totally wear a tie if I didn't think the alum was a stuffy first-gen. businessman who would think I was like, a whorelet with delusions of respectability or something.

I wish I were a guy. Then it would be okay.

[fahye.livejournal.com]

Aw, whorelet Ji.

*scruffles*

*retidies*

BEST OF LUCK, DARLING. I am to dinner.

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

I will tell you about it tomorrow! eat nice things.

*prepares to project whatever the appropriate feminine equivalent of attractive young white moneyed male is . . . and goes to bed*

[littledust.livejournal.com]

My list of suicidally depressing songs would probably be about 1/3 of my playlist. @_@;

I feel the random need to tell you that you are, in fact, made of awesome.

[fahye.livejournal.com]

HEE. I think that we should make uploady-posts of Five Songs To Rip Your Heart Out.

Awww, thank you, m'dear :) I would reciprocate immediately, but for the fact that you are three parts awesome, two parts adorable and one part brilliantly crazy.

[littledust.livejournal.com]

HaHA I was already planning on posting a list of Songs I Would Totally Have Sex To, Not That Most Of You Are That Curious Anyway.

D'awww, there is such love in Fahye's LJ!

[fahye.livejournal.com]

HAHAHA I HAVE ONE OF THOSE. Concierto de Aranjuez, baby. Take me now.

[littledust.livejournal.com]

STOP MAKING ME WANT TO DO MUSIC POSTS. You know mine are always GIANT. :x

[fahye.livejournal.com]

I LOVE YOUR MUSIC POSTS. I GET SO MUCH NEW STUFF FROM THEM.

*enables*

[littledust.livejournal.com]

*cries* YOU DEEPLY TERRIBLE PERSON, THEY TAKE SO LONG.

On the other hand, it would be a great reason to stay up all hours of the night.

[fahye.livejournal.com]

OH, WHINE WHINE WHINE. YOU SAID YOU WERE DOING ONE ANYWAY.

Exactly!

[littledust.livejournal.com]

YES, BUT JUST SEXY SONGS. POSTING EVERY NEW MP3 I'VE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH WILL TAKE DAYS OF TYPING AND UPLOADING.

Who does homework, honestly?

[fahye.livejournal.com]

DID I SAY IT HAD TO BE EVERY NEW ONE? SEXY IS FINE.

[littledust.livejournal.com]

BUT BUT BUT I HAVE SO MANY OTHER GOOD ONES.

My love of pimping is going to get me in trouble, you see.

[fahye.livejournal.com]

You realise you are totally talking yourself into this. I DID NOTHING. BEAR WITNESS, WORLD.

*flees to read before dinner*

[littledust.livejournal.com]

*should probably sleep at some point*

[baggers.livejournal.com]

today in skool, i learnt the same thing!

[unravels.livejournal.com]

Your bulletproof mood can survive Gethsemane? Color me impressed. :]

*sigh* Ok, now I want to go see JCS. As if the Les Mis craving wasn't enough. I AM RUINED FOR CONCENTRATING ON WORK ALL DAY NOW.

All right, yes, this is nothing new. :P