fahye | mostly contented rambling

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mostly contented rambling

To my friends list, whom I appear to have been neglecting but love really ~

Life is in a balance at the moment, the present is often crazy and stressful and full of far too many emotions but the future is shiny and appealing. And I've never cared much about the past, because it's not like I can do anything about it.

Present is full of things that would be entirely unexciting to anyone. They're entirely unexciting to ME. Hmm. I'm on a slightly scary Jacobean drama kick and have been sulking at the lack of good tragedies in my school library. John Webster rocks my socks. As do the Barenaked Ladies, thanks to

minkhollow's cunning sneaky plots. You watch out, Jill. I'm composing my own list of songs that worm into your subconscious and never go away.

Future, for purposes of clarity - I have only 43 days of proper school left, then exams, then graduation. I am spending a week in Queensland with my friends (my father had a fit of amazing generosity tonight and agreed to pay for the trip if I pay for my birthday party) and will turn eighteen whilst on holidays. The weekend after I get back I'm throwing my 18th party. Two weeks after that is Christmas, and then New Year's. And then I'm studying science at the Australian National University, moving out of home and housesharing with a friend, and generally making the most of my four glorious undergrad years. After that I plan to go overseas, travel for a while, and do my PhD somewhere in America or England.

It's nice to have a plan, even if you know it's probably going to get disrupted.

Home life is zany but good, and today involved jumping up and down in the kitchen and screaming in both frustration and happiness, driving my brother to Video Ezy and arguing amiably about the action movies we were going to hire, and lying on the couch with parents watching 21 Grams. Watch it. It's amazing.

Not valid for another 54 minutes by the clock as I write this, but as I probably won't see you on the day - the greatest of birthdays to

sanguia! Enjoy your year of Mexican Porn (TM) and good luck with finding your independence and the things you want to achieve. You'll get there. And hey, you're turning the legal age for everything in the legal porn and sex shop capital of the legal prostituition country. What's not to like?

Finally for this evening, a meme that looks like a more personal and thought-provoking exercise than the majority -

Leave a comment with your name if you want to know what I really think of you, and I'll reply and tell you. No lies, all honesty.

Cheers,

Fahye, in not-so-desperate need of a future

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Love you! Miss you! Where are you? *cries*

You don't have to tell me what you honestly think [or you can, but you don't know me all that well yet :-D], but you never did leave me interview questions. *pout*

Real life eats me. I miss you too ;_;

No, I don't know you very well. But I couldn't wish for a better or more talented fellow RPer and honorary big sister *mwah* Your Adam is jawdroppingly good and I wish I had a few extra lives to spend online being creative with you and the others. I'm always glad to see you on MSN and I love chatting with you.

I didn't? Bah, and I thought I'd got everyone!

Right. This shall be rectified.

1) When did you become resigned to Adam and Paul being an Item? :D

2) Out of all the things you've studied in your life, what interested you the most and why?

3) What are your three favourite songs?

4) What do you think you'd never do, no matter how much money you were offered?

5) If I was - purely hypothetically, you understand - to offer to write you a drabble, what would you request? *looks shifty*

Tegan (she who is living in fear of your response...)
also, YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRR for mooloolaba!!!!

Hmm, 'kay :)

You confuse me sometimes. There are days when you'll sit by yourself or stay out of conversations or storm away and I'll get worried but not have the slightest idea of how I can help or even if you'd appreciate the effort.

But then there are days when you're smiling and crazy and it makes me want to smile too, because your personality is so infectious. I love the way we can talk for ages and ages about anything from weird school-related tangents (Question Sluts!) to deep personal issues. I love the way you share so many of my insecurities and opinions, and the way you can need to be comforted or perfectly preapred to comfort me yourself. I like the way you throw yourself around in the sun and fall into people's laps looking exceedingly melodramatic :D

I think you're incredibly intelligent, intellectual and I envy your strong-mindedness and ability to pinpoint what you want and what you believe. I think you should stop stressing about your future, because you're going to find your niche and become disgustingly rich and successful and happy.

There.

*huggedyhug*
YOU IS BEST.

Happy to hear that you're well n_n And it sounds like a good plan you have there. I hope that if it get interrupted, it's not by anything horrifying or the like.

Oh and --> Shi XD

*glomps* I don't talk to you as often as I'd like, mostly because I'm busy but also because I'm lazy. This is bad. Hit me if you wish.

I love your ramblings, your entries are always full of something crazy and interesting. Half the places and things I've found in the X fandom are because of your amazing habit of picking them out of the mire. You have Fandom Radar, girl.

You're friendly and you don't hesitate to give honest praise or make friends. You were one of the first to inspire my crackbunnies, and one day Seishirou, Subaru And The Lobster will be written. I promise you that ^_^

*giggles* And one day it'll be drawn, when I stop being so damn lazy myself XD;; Maybe on the corner of some page, it will be XD;;

<333

ME. :D

Xy~n!

You are one of those that I have been neglecting shamefully, and I feel bad about it because you've never been anything but lovely to me. You were one of the first friends I made purely through fandom, and your feedback and amiability meant heaps to me when I was a lowly writer just finding my feet in the big scary X fandom (not that I've moved much from that spot, but you've made my stay infinitely more enjoyable!) Your enthusiasm and encouragement are always great, and you never seem irritated when I drop my RL worries on you. I'd like to be able to help you as well in the future :)

Your writing frequently astounds me with its depth of detail and your grasp on how to tie words together so that they form something beautiful. I'll never have your talent for imagery and creating interesting situations and pictures, and I hope yours takes you far. You strike me as someone who is generally easy-going but isn't afraid to take a stand in the face of injustice or something that goes against what you feel is right. I admire that.

You're very giving and a great friend and I luff you muchly <3

...;_;<333

... me?

What is strange (not bad, just strange) about you is that your online persona is quite different to your RL one. Obviously your interests and things are the same, but online I find that you come across more mature and sensible. You're one of my absolute favourite people to chat to on MSN because we can just go onandonandon about the randomest of topics. I like that. I like the way you slip into Japanese and the way you throw yourself into fandoms and writing with huge enthusiasm. I want to steal your TeniPuri DVDs :D

You're probably the least spiteful or mean person I know, and I don't think I've ever heard you bitch or do anything to hurt anyone else. I envy that. I adore your writing and your sense of fun, and the fact that you let me rant about story ideas at your for HOURS without getting sick of me. You're my crackbuddy. And Af and Sandy are my darling little pets, mwahaha.

... Aw, thanks. *blush* Want me to do the meme for you here or on my LJ?

On yours. That way you get to experience my painjoy and do it for EVERYONE EVER.

Ahaha.

Hee! Already done. ^~

::eeeeeeeevil laughter:: My plan is succeeding! YES!
...Er. (You do realize this means I'll have to do Barenaked Yousendit Part Two, one of these days... XD)
And hey, I'm all about the music swappage.

I charged out to try and find a BNF CD today and the stupid music shop didn't have any. Or maybe the man told me to look in the wrong place. Grr.

When I can narrow my list down from oh, about 25, I'll start uploading.

It's not about narrowing the list down, it's about posting it in installments. (Surely you've seen all the music I've been posting as of late...)
Oh, and if you want to do that meme thingy about me, go ahead.

Eeeeexcellent. Music shall be forthcoming.

Hmm. I don't think I know you well enough to judge your personality, which is a pity. I know that you're amusing and clever and are having a massive influence on my music tastes :D

You also fill me with the huge wish that I'd seen more than one episode of Daria in my entire life.

Science??!!!!! Oh, dodge it as you will, young lady, your mad literary skillzors will consume you eventually. Then I will laugh with glee and buy your novel. There will be knives in it, of course. And Evil that is actually Not That Evil and all sorts of things Possibly Redeemable with Love.

or.... something.

Perhaps we don't know each other well enough, but: Art.

*firmly* Science.

Largely psychology, though. Imagine the increase in mind-fuckery that my writing will show.

Opinion, right-o. First and foremost, I think you're one of the most talented writers I've ever encountered and far better than half the crap that gets published. I'd like to see you write humour or a dialogue-rich story because although your imagery is so gorgeous it hurts I'm interested to see how you approach other things. Your portrayal of my character and others is amazingly spot on and you weave stories so well.

On a more personal and less fangirly note - I love talking to you, even if all we do is crap on about different varieties of cake. You've always got a different perspective or a sensible thought on whatever is going on in my life, and you're everything I could wish for as one of my pseudo-sisters. RPing with you is always a thought-provoking, fun and sometimes exhausting experience, and pushes me to my creative limits.

I don't know your personal details much, no, but I know enough to treasure you as a friend.

You don't know me well enough to do quiz I don't think.
Just dropping in to say that your futrue does sound really good. Your father's paying for your trip? That'll be good.
Brisbane sounds great!
Have you planned anything for your 18th? I'm aware it's not 'till the end of the year, but I'm just interested in 18th parties. Will it be a big one?

Aww, can I ramble about you for a while anyway? Won't be long, promise.

I think you're incredibly sweet and a fun and charming person to be around - you've always got a smile or encouraging hug, but you've also got that evil giggle and innocent look that make you amusing and interesting. Your art is absolutely lovely and I hope you achieve what you want in life, because I one day expect to be downloading fansubs with YOUR voice behind them!

And because I forgot - my 18th is probably going to be on the 18th of December :D Appropriate! Put it in your diary now! It'll be a party at my house, music and dancing and maybe swimming if people want. I plan to spend a few days cooking industrial amounts of food and then just letting people do whatever they like. Pretty casual.

aww.. thank you *snuggles*
You make me gooey inside.
*smiles* Thank you for noting my smiles. I like my smiles.
For that I promice you that one day I will do some pretty uke and squee people!

Whee party! *giggle* what an appropriate date. Wrote it in now. Oh it makes me happy already. *hugs*

Kelsey-thing~ *awaits puncturing of ego* XD

Why on earth would I be ego-puncturing, you silly thing?

You're another of my friends who I should talk to more often, but I often don't because I'm not sure if I'm welcome or if I'm just going to ramble insanely and notbe any fun at all. When we do talk, though, it usually leaves me with a new idea or opinion or thing to try - you introduced me to Tori Amos, and that's certainly something ^^

I adore your writing beyond measure, and you're another who I'd like to see do humour or dialogue because your pieces are often very imagery-based and I think you have the talent to extend it. You waver between being very mature for your age and endearingly crazy, and your icon skillz make me boggle.

You seem like a very strong person, one who feels things very deeply but knows how to pick themself up and keep going afterwards. I think you'd be an awesome friend to have in real life, because you're fun and occasionally insane but also honestly concerned with the feelings of others.

My name's Erin, unless it's not. But I'm pretty sure it is. ^_^ *huggles*

*huggles back*

I really admire your convictions, the way you are comfortable with yourself and don't adhere to labels like the majority of society. I think you're very brave and patient for living with CFS, and that you manage to keep an amazingly cheerful and lively outlook on life, for the most part.

You've got a great imagination, I think your AU story has some strongly original ideas behind it, and I admire the way you are self-critical where it comes to your art and consciously put effort into trying to improve.

You rant on very interesting topics, got me interested in the theories behind BDSM and expanded my mind and tolerance where it comes to sexuality and gender issues. Thank you for that.

I have the coherency to rant? o_O; Woo, go me.

*hugs* It's funny how many people say I've either made them think about gender or bdsm or whatnot more, or how they just don't understand my issues with them XD Mostly I think it's funny because I never go out to do that, I just think about them a lot, and they don't take as much coherency to talk about as some of the other stuff I talk about.

I think I had a point, but I lost it.

...

Oh well. *hugs again and wanders off*

*GLOMPS FRAR IN JOY AND SHOWERS HER IN MEXICAN PORN(tm)* hey, wanna come round some time so i can hire that for you? also: be nice to the birthday girl and indulge her by including her in your meme? *hugs*

*attacks the birthday girl with hugs*

Where to begin? You have the most incredible mind of anyone I've met. Your ideas are astoundingly original, frequently hilarious and always intelligent. You can write far better than me, and my first awareness of this fact is what spurred me to look critically at my own style and strive for improvement. Writing TNIAY with you has been an education in itself, and I blame you for my love of and talent in crack humour.

You introduced me to such wonders as Fight Club, Donnie Darko, Black Books and (despite exceedingly unfair Brian/Mikey BRAINWASHING) the joy that is Queer As Folk.

I like having discussions with you because our opinions can differ so much - sometimes I find it hard to understand you because you are so firm on issues, whereas I always try and explore both sides of an argument and accept two points of view equally - you come down passionately on the side you believe in, which (though frustrating at times) is something that I admire.

You're crazy and great fun to be around, and you're not afraid to be yourself.

Tell me what you think. I can take it.

*ducks*

??? I TYPED UP YOUR REPLY AND LJ ATE IT. *deep breath* Starting over...

I think we've already established that I no longer find it as scary talking to you as I once did :D But I'm so, so glad that we started chatting, because I was incredibly lucky to come across a friend like you. My spirits lift when I see you online or your name in my inbox, and I love the fact that you'll even come online when drunk and be endearingly random at me. You understand when things are going wrong and can usually say something to jolt me back into sanity or cheerfulness. I love you more than I can say and I count my life better and richer for having met you.

You're a great writer and an even better RPer - you're amazingly good at creating complex, funny, real characters and keeping them separate and well played. Your threads and stories and comments can make me laugh and ache and feel like crying. You come up with great ideas, take them, and run. And you CREATED the place, which makes you at least a demigoddess in the eyes of many!

I wish I could meet you in real life, I wish you really were my sister. I wish the timezones weren't so evil and the oceans weren't so bloody big and travel wasn't so expensive. One day I shall track you down and latch onto your arm and never let go.

You're so much more than you think you are, dearling, and one day I hope you can see yourself as I see you.

*mwah*

*jumps up and down* OH ME ME ME!!!!!!!!!!

I think I've come to know you better this past year, and maybe understand you a bit better. You've shown more annoyance and angst and while of course that isn't good from YOUR point of view, it has stopped me taking the slightly shallow view of you as the "happy one." You do manage to keep a cheerful face and demeanour most of the time, though, and you brighten up my day frequently. There's so much against optimists in today's society, and yet you persist. I like that about you.

You're fun to fangirl with, you introduce me to new animes and music and fun and wacky things. I think you're going to go far in life, because you make friends easily and you have a gift for making others feel comfortable and happy.

Pretty please me.

You often seem very serious in real life, and between that and your lovely cracky online self I have a pretty balanced view of who you are, I think. I admire the way you RP, you let your characters develop great quirks and habits that make them fascinating to read and interact with.

You're the only person I've ever known who wants to be a librarian and I think you'll make a great one. I envy you your future full of books :D You come up with the funniest and most incredible ideas, and love you for introducing me to the fun to be have with the Arthurian legends, especially Mordred and 'Ala. They're yours, really. I'm just playing with them.

And Skazz is Sex On Legs. Full stop, no arguments.

LOLLZZ BEEANNZZ!!!!!!! YO WHAT'S THINKKNIN' O' ME??

Interesting one :D

I really regret the fact that we've grown apart over the senior years, because I really valued - still do! - our friendship and you were one of the reasons I took so long to decide to leave the group. I think you've really come into your own since then, you've let your crazy side out and it's made you a fascinating and frequently hilarious person. I feel sad that you're so quiet sometimes when I've seen you being loud and honestly enjoying yourself with others. (And sometimes I don't understand a word you and Ali and Eujar are saying, but it sounds intruiguing anyway... :P)

I envy the way you seem to have a natural gift for everything you turn your hand to, both creative and academic. You could probably be the world's first singer-actor-pianist-writer and blow audiences out of the water whilst simultaneously winning the Booker Prize. I hope you find a path that you truly enjoy, because anything less would be a waste of your talent.

W00T W00T!!!!!!!!!!!!!111

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