harsh the buzz

[fahye]

Ughghgh weren't weekends once designed to be fun? Whatever happened to that? I remember spending my weekends reading books on the couch while wriggling around trying to follow the elusive patch of sunshine, and going for impromptu shopping trips, and making brownies with the television turned towrds the kitchen, and staying up late with jasmine tea and RPing until 3am.

It's not like I'm unused to spending my weekends glued to my med school work; I think I'm mostly chafing because a combination of Public Holiday and Recession Diet mean that my usual break-activities (such as browsing soothingly in bookshops and buying coffee) are impossible.

And it usually takes me less than FOUR HOURS to type up less than a week's worth of lecture notes, so I think my brain has gone to pot as well.

Blah blah angstcakes.

Comments

[fahye.livejournal.com]

I will repeat At Least I'm Not Trying To Write A Thesis to myself! I think it will help. Good luck with your plants :) And let me know when you're on this coast again, I'd like to see you sometime.

[pirateygoodness.livejournal.com]

If it helps, I am finding the same thing. There is a month left in first year, and everything takes SO MUCH LONGER now that I am hitting the edge of burnout. A five-page paper that would have taken an afternoon in September took me four evenings.

I decided to sit down and forcibly take this weekend off, even though I have SO MANY PRODUCTIVE THINGS I could be doing.

[lilith-lessfair.livejournal.com]

So sorry, Fahye. I've experienced the same thing, and, rather than decide that my brain is becoming withered and weak, which is likely true in my case but certainly not in yours, I've decided that it's something like a marathon or maybe the Ironman. When you did your undergrad or other earlier studies (earlier years of med schoo; -- no idea where you are in it, sorry), you were able to sprint and finish quickly because things tended to function around a short and sweet timeline. Hard work, yes, but mainly in bursts. Now, it's more of the long, long, long haul and the expectations I'd suspect are that much higher (though you may have always set them very high), so you have to pace yourself and have to deal with the increased material and difficulty. May not be true in your case, but that's what I tell myself and sometimes it works. Sometimes.
And I'd agree; the recession diet is not much help.

Chin up and be well. You're marvelous.