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*sits and looks sullen*
Ick. Had HORRIBLE day today. My mother has all but refused to let me go to supernova, so I very VERY much doubt that I'll be allowed to go, and will be stuck at home cleaning and working while others are cosplaying and buying things and watching anime. I have a huge amount of maths homework that I seriously CAN'T DO. Next week looks like being a piece of shit, and I expect I'll get stuck doing essay writing and study skills the whole time. Looks like the highlight will be Lawn Bowls with Robbo, coz at least I'll have ppl to talk to.
Am starting to become scared about how little money I have. I NEED more credit for my phone and a new watch battery, but WANT heaps of blank CDs plus have to get my Poison Ivy costume for Dragon Skin. Also would like to be able to give you guys money to buy me stuff in Sydney, also money to give to Teegs when she goes to Japan. But I'm supposed to be saving up for going to England and Italy because the exchange rate will be awful and I want to be able to buy stuff for everyone as well as myself. And at the moment I have the grand old sum of $10. ANd I can't get a job because I have NO TIME and if I stop dancing mum will kill me (plus I love it) and I DON'T want to stop Gang Show even though it takes up sooo much time...
Stupid computers at school won't let you print ANYTHING without credit now, got no idea how to put credit in account and (of course) have no money to spare for that anyway.
All of this combined, was feeling ULTRA-DEPRESSED most of today and have the horrible feeling that I was bitching and whining to everyone I talked to. Sorry. Will try not to do it again. But I was in the worst, most depressed mood I have been in for a very long time, and am not very good at keeping that kind of thing locked up without it tainting others. (look at me now - bitching away...)
Thought LJ would cheer me up but no, just people talking about supernova/Japan/wonderful boyfriends (good on ya Cathy ^_^). You know how everyone has cycles of high points and low points in their life? I think my low points must coincide with everyone else's high points. Agh! *hit self very hard* I'm doing it again. New resolve for weekend: stop being so damn self-pitying and pissing everyone off.
Ok. Positive stuff. Finished SSS clip, needs a bit of polishing but at least it's done. Went for walk on hill this arvo so got a teensy bit of exercise. Have managed to go without junk food for quite a while, am getting better at it. GS audition and Skyfire tomorrow. (I'm singing the Under Your Spell reprise for my audition, Teegs!) Have the whole night to watch Buffy and Kenshin.
Ok. Feeling a bit better now.
Am starting to become scared about how little money I have. I NEED more credit for my phone and a new watch battery, but WANT heaps of blank CDs plus have to get my Poison Ivy costume for Dragon Skin. Also would like to be able to give you guys money to buy me stuff in Sydney, also money to give to Teegs when she goes to Japan. But I'm supposed to be saving up for going to England and Italy because the exchange rate will be awful and I want to be able to buy stuff for everyone as well as myself. And at the moment I have the grand old sum of $10. ANd I can't get a job because I have NO TIME and if I stop dancing mum will kill me (plus I love it) and I DON'T want to stop Gang Show even though it takes up sooo much time...
Stupid computers at school won't let you print ANYTHING without credit now, got no idea how to put credit in account and (of course) have no money to spare for that anyway.
All of this combined, was feeling ULTRA-DEPRESSED most of today and have the horrible feeling that I was bitching and whining to everyone I talked to. Sorry. Will try not to do it again. But I was in the worst, most depressed mood I have been in for a very long time, and am not very good at keeping that kind of thing locked up without it tainting others. (look at me now - bitching away...)
Thought LJ would cheer me up but no, just people talking about supernova/Japan/wonderful boyfriends (good on ya Cathy ^_^). You know how everyone has cycles of high points and low points in their life? I think my low points must coincide with everyone else's high points. Agh! *hit self very hard* I'm doing it again. New resolve for weekend: stop being so damn self-pitying and pissing everyone off.
Ok. Positive stuff. Finished SSS clip, needs a bit of polishing but at least it's done. Went for walk on hill this arvo so got a teensy bit of exercise. Have managed to go without junk food for quite a while, am getting better at it. GS audition and Skyfire tomorrow. (I'm singing the Under Your Spell reprise for my audition, Teegs!) Have the whole night to watch Buffy and Kenshin.
Ok. Feeling a bit better now.
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But don't beat yourself up, Fahye-sama! Ben is the only up-point in my life right now >.<; I still have loads of homework, no money, home problems (living in Duffy and all), etc...
So keep your chin up and be cooooooooooooooool 'cause that's what you ARE!! XD
SOMEONE NEEDS A HUG!!!
and everyone seems to be pissing me off. not YOU (and i didn't notice you whinging today), but pretty much anyone who talks to me. and i'm being a bitch, cuz i don't know how to be anything else, and that's NOT a high point. and i don't think anyone else is having the time of their life either. we're just looking forward to a time which WILL be fun. and hey, we'll buy you symathy presents!
and if it cheers you up, i got those piccies deveoped, and there's some really good ones of you.